Getting swept away

I wrote this last year, but I found it in my journal this morning and realized it certainly applies to right now.

I am in the middle of summer—my four kids home all the time and several neighbor kids in and out nearly every day—and I am exhausted and feeling unproductive. I just read the above journal entry (note: it was about doing more personal writing) and thought, “What have I done since then?” I’ve wiped a lot of snotty noses (namely ONE nose, PJ’s); I’ve done a lot of ferrying to swim lessons, gymnastics, library activities, etc.; I’ve fixed a lot of meals; I’ve hosted a lot of people; I’ve written quite a bit for the College–just not stuff “for me.”
And I just read these verses:
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior” Isaiah 43:2-3
Oh, I am not going to be dramatic. There are others dealing with starvation and abuse and sickness and grief, but there are days when I feel overwhelmed, like a river is washing over my head and I am bobbing in its waves and pushing up again and again to suck in the quick breaths that will keep me alive.
And You PROMISE me that You will not let it sweep over me; I will not be carried away from You, from sanity, from the life You have for me.
Thank You.

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